20th June 2008

Eve of My 40’s? Oh My Gosh! 4 replies

It is the my 40th birthday eve - holy shit!

I’m saying goodbye to my 30’s tonight.  I can’t believe I’ve been alive for forty years, am starting the fourth decade, and luckily have survived an amazing journey with mind, soul and body intact.

I celebrate my 40th with a baby inside of me - you know what’s great about being 40 and pregnant - I don’t have to suck in my tummy for anyone - I can look down on my growing belly with pride, excitement and anticipation.  I can see my belly moving just the tiniest bit if I settle down for a while and relax.  I think my baby likes to rest on the left side of my belly or that is his/her foot or something because there is always movement when I watch on the left side, just to the left of my belly button (TMI - sorry).

I get such a kick out of watching that movement - such love and pride at the same time - such warmth.  I seem to have insomnia in the middle of the night - and seem to lie awake for two hours or so.  The worst thing about that is if you’re staying in a bed and breakfast and you forgot to bring a snack with you in your room.  Fruit and veggies are the craving of this phase.

Friendship, true friendship, health, mental capacity, ownership of one’s ideas and freedom to pursue whatever you want - these are all things that are greatly appreciated and respected.  Thank you God for these last 20 years, where I’ve been able to make those decisions on my own, and most of which have been healthy ones.  For the first 20 or near that, I appreciate those decisions that my parents made for and on behalf of me, well most of them that is.

In the last 20 years, I’ve seen Russia, Stockholm/Sweden, Britain, travelled twice to Poland from the latter two locations to see family members, Costa Rica for my 35th celebration and last year for work, Argentina, Antarctica to see the penguins and observe environmental changes taking place, and numerous states within the U.S. for work and pleasure.

My least favorite place: Bahamas, and the cruise to get there; perhaps Poland although my exposure was limited in such a short stay

My favorite places: Stockholm, Laguna Beach, Key Biscayne and parts of Miami (Trump Sonesta)

Places I really hope I get to see:  Cabos Son Lucas, Mexico; Antarctica again, with my children, Norway, Greek Isles, and wherever really nice hotels overlooking the ocean with great food are - diva yes.

I hope to take my child(ren) to see multiple places around the world, with great, true, intellectual friends who can share some wisdom and culture with my children - and teach them a few things perhaps I cannot.  I pray I have health and wisdom to make good decisions on behalf of my child(ren) for the next 40 years of my life.  I pray I am involved even when it is not convenient for me, no matter what phase of my life.  I pray my children become a central part of what drives me to get up in the morning, and stay awake at night. 

I hope they become me - define me - and further develop my wisdom and happiness.

Thank you God that at 40, I am preparing for, and able to prepare, for children, at last.

4 Responses to “Eve of My 40’s? Oh My Gosh!”

  1. Kristi from CA says:
    June 20th, 2008 at 11:31 pm

    HAPPY BIRTHDAY! (I think it’s after 12 there, hehe) Such wonderful things in store for you. I’m so glad you are on your way to being a Mother, you will be so wonderful and caring. I don’t know you all that well but just from the small times we have met and chatted, I get such a wonderful vibe from you. Your children will be lucky to have you as their mother.

    I was going to comment on your other blog but will do so here; being preggo, giving birth, and raising a child does get you into some sort of a ‘club’ with other woman. It’s such a miracle but everyone’s story is always different and it’s great to connect with other people. I’m so glad you get to go through it. Your story about the horse made me sad but this baby you are having is such a gift and you were meant to have him or her THIS way. There is a plan for everyone. I’m just sorry some people have to go through so much pain to get there.

    Hope I babbled right and made sense, I’m so tired :)

  2. Laura Thieme says:
    June 21st, 2008 at 7:26 am

    Thank you Kristi for your never-waning support of my desire to have a child, my fertility journey, and the pregnancy itself. I appreciate all of your writings. It’s too bad we are so far apart, but you always make me feel that you’re nearby. And you have two beautiful children yourself to be proud of - I might add. I think you have to post a link to your own blog so people can see your beautiful children!

  3. Stephanie Thieme says:
    June 21st, 2008 at 8:00 pm

    Hi Laura,
    You are welcome to visit us at our home in Jacksonville, NC - not very far from where you are now.
    Sadly, Mark is not here as he is deployed overseas regardless, you are always welcome at our home anytime.
    If interested, please respond to my email address and I will happily supply driving directions.
    We have 2 kitties and 2 doggies but clean sheets and a clean bathroom (free of smoke so baby friendly), a/c, and home cooked meals! :)

    Happy, Happy Birthday!

    Love,
    Stephanie

  4. Susan Shepherd says:
    June 24th, 2008 at 8:34 pm

    Hey Laura! You’re pregnant?!!! Wowee! Congratulations! I thought of you recently, and went on line to see if I could find out what you’ve been up to. And jeez, look what I stumble across.

    You’ll be a great Mom.

    Ian and I are so happy for you. We’d love to have ore kids but we have Kellyn who is 8 and our little boy Evan Riley who just turned 4. Oh, they grow so fast. They keep us busy.
    Ian turns 52 this year and I’m 43 now. Eeek, we’re geezing. Shhhhhh… :)

    Hope everyone in family is doing well.
    Congrats again! Let me know if its a boy or girl. Hope he or she has your sparkling eyes and wit.

    And oh, of course HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRL! And let me tell yout the 40s are great! Everything is better, and I do mean everything…

    Lots of love,

    Susan

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